I still don’t know how I’ll manage to have so many holidays when I’ve been used to the bare minimum and no more. And it doesn’t matter that I still have planning and things to do because I only ever took holidays to do a show anyway. But I suspect that just dealing with them as they come along will help. I am really looking forward to not having my alarm wake me up in the morning. I’m going to tidy up, then go to the gym and I’ll even have time to lounge in the spa before heading home – not like my usual in again out again weeknight sessions.
Feeling both more calm and more apprehensive this week – for all its shorter. Firstly, I tried a new approach to classroom management. Firstly I’ve stopped responding when pupils ask irrelevant questions or carry on talking. I just stop everything until their all silent. I used to use this all the time in Community work but have always felt to constrained by time and by the feeling of having to ‘get through’ things no matter what in the classroom. But apparently that isn’t as true as I’ve convinced myself and was told to take more time if it was necessary to get a better atmosphere and more productive work. I feel much better.
On the other hand, everyone is now starting to talk about observations. Somehow I find the whole concept scarier than crits. Possibly because I at least felt that I could make mistakes as a student but still feel as if I shouldn’t as an NQT. Although that is ridiculous and I know people expect me to have problems and offer support when I do.
Maybe I’m not alone and every other NQT feels like this. Or maybe I’m just crazy!
Still, I have a weekend of the gym and spending time with my lovely man and cuddly animals to look forward to!
